Oblivion!

There is a plight of ambience  so serene, so somber, and an apathy of faith in the canvas the pigeons are brewing their nonchalant views in.  A hollow siren of broken cages all discrete and echoing of chambers-- of cups broken and coffee spilled.  What would the barbaric man think of you master? A puppet disguised as a puppeteer, or a silent whimperer too cruel, too wondrous, too white  to be a connoisseur  of a life well lived, in a city of capes and mystic drapes?  The buildings decorated in blue Christmas lights showering meaning to existence-- so surreal it is, and so cautious, so provocative.  How lifeless the mannequins  disguised as humans,  crowd the cities and streets, with roles of aversion giving a life lesson  of empathy.  Can you see the violence that exists in the empty halls of the room filled with the void of malevolent peace,  where a circuit of archived destinies and epiphanies create a filthy love for systems...

I am afloat.  On a sea of little lies, I am reading books of dystopia, and women, and love as if I stand to correct them all, live them all and savor them all.  I type my epiphanies and write my strangest, wildest, melancholic thoughts under the impression of communicating with  the additional dimension I so patiently  and consistently studied last night.  With nachos dipped in mustard sauce,  and a chocolate cappuccino by my side, staying late night to comprehend The Republic,  and staying late night to understand the quantum. I sleep along the chapters of the anime I wish never ended.  I wear the perfume before bed because my dreams have to smell like mine. I put on the best pair of socks I have;  a barefooted dream feels like a crime.  Why did I be so precise?  The necessity for words of delicate length,  I aspire for elegance while playing the darts,  and I hope for vengeance during the ballet.  Am I too complicat...

I came home the other night,  my shoe rack filled with muddy wear,  the balloon from my November birthday still hanging on rather blatantly. Looking like a stain is my window-- a little bit open at the top to let me see the words of affirmation among the stars.  Pretty, she is. The silhouette of the perfect girl  I have drawn on the canvas in my purple room, often bewildered, often bejeweled,  and often in awe of the reminiscent world.  I came home the other night,  to the smell of the burnt oak tree which was lying around near the backyard  reminding me of how dear it felt to exist once in a while.  A lovely serendipity prying its way onto the screen so very near,  as if I am in a movie where I stay like a stray cat on the warm lap of a woman piercing my paws of hesitation with looks of idyllic smile.  Problematic she is. The enchantment of a lively soul that eludes in the rainbow, and I wish. I wish to see the sequoia once again....

  As my grandma slowly poured the sesame seeds onto the hot pan and the oil sizzled with the eternal taste of pretense, I laid obediently on the newly earned canvas of righteous freedom because it was noted that this time belonged to us alone.  I could do anything.  I could play the piano I had been dying to play for so long and play Russian songs over it. I could finally feel the little bottle of magnetic sand I got from the beach in my hands and see that they weren’t ashes this time. And how cool is it that we all dared to paint with the color red after all these daunting war-feared years? It’s a captivating red sunset sheltering the anonymity of the groovy moves of the floating clouds. It’s framing the remaining houses as if it’s a modern Starry “Dusk” . Has it always been this beautiful? The flying birds and swaying fields, buildings so layered and afar, young girls playing so safely on the streets, and a group of kids discussing philosophy—I wish I could eavesdrop on...

The heavy blow of ambience so captivating seeks shelter in your window  filled with resilience and words of thriving scars alike.  Situated amidst your tapestry of life, and within the heathers some time I wished to be burnt, within the pages of notebooks better torn, and within the sheets of overly craved ransom  somewhere mystically befalling the unknown.  I stand with you, darling.  Amidst the roses of no colors, the emptiness in you sulking the life of mine too,  and with the gaze of the eyes sheltered in the anonymity of lifeless paradise. Hunger is there,  and there is the warp of time fueled with trepidation, standing along with you feels like a crime.  A crime so subtle, it takes away the essence of criminality, you seek the prison like your home,  and make me a guard. I recklessly, accept.  You make me humanly sublime, take my words for the bereavement of the hefty presence  you wished was never there.  You walk to me,...

  I heard the slither of her jewels as they caressed her hands in beauty,  the expression of her nails as they were painted to mystify  the scar she had on her fingers, I heard the smile of the red ballgown, and I heard the music of the  stockings she wore as her skin constantly reminded her,  “It’s December, honey!” She smelled like lavender, spoke like an angel; and the way her cat snuck closer to her on the winter evening,  she looked like a fairy mother.  Oh how dearly she wishes to dance it all out,  the words of liberation, and the tunes of freedom,  how dearly she wishes to let go of the hair bun to finally  let them sway their own way.  The delicacy of loose hair, and the nude lips, the laughter that hides beneath the sweet smile.  She wants to laugh it all out.  The little peek at the campfire she cherishes,  the fiery illusion of loving things from afar,  as the garden lushes with tomatoes and olives,...

  I could see the little droplets making their way into the world. Slither epiphanies and the earthy smell. Oh, how delicate! The parades of freshly washed peaches across the street; the chirrups of beetles, the fresh breeze swaying onto the black road, and how lovely, how wise the leaves look when they unfold. The muddy stains on the silky roads, the beauty that arises with the misty haze of the evening. So raw, pilfering the clouds of their void is the narrative of a window that sweeps off the domain of whimsical, melancholic and a deprived soul all at once. Is this what a beginning feels like? Is the life so majestically withdrawn from silent vows of the nature just a beauty to cherish? Or a memory of love to perish. The love story of a green stem and the purple flower, the rain embracing the utterance of the bodies so connected, so intertwined. A suspect can you not see; a ruse of darkness that enchants with its own little lies. Oh, rain! How clev...

Life is a parody, and in a more divine way, living is a paradox! Life is love. It is the unidentified connection to the self. It is the certainty of the minute links that paints the canvas of our void with eternal colors. It is commitment; it is passion. The words of the mirror saying, “You look good today.”; the cool way we jam to our music taste; the morning sip of the strongest black coffee and a piece of the dark chocolate -- that’s life, caring of the self. Life is a futile destiny ending at the seams. It’s not about existence; it’s about being present. It's a redeemed reality. It’s like a plane mirror, we (the images), most of the time, aren’t even real. Life is fear. It is waking up to infinite problems we don’t have the solutions to. It is being assigned a favor of cruelty to our dreams and ourselves. It’s that disappointment of not living up to the aspirations. Life is a football match. Sometimes, someone else gets a free kick and we get kicked, right in the faces. Life is...

  “Define yourself.”  But, you see, the thing about definitions is that they are absolute, inacceptable of change. My life is quite the contrary, so, I don’t think I have a definition. But that’s where the philosophical thoughts step in. The 3 AM “when your dog eats your philosophy homework” vibes. Reading crime books and then confirming “well, at least that’s not my definition.” Finding peace in something I am not. And, watching self-motivation movies because you feel really low. That was what “define yourself” did to me.  But on the brighter side, that was how I got to know about the movie “Dead Poets Society.” I honestly watched it just because it has the words, “dead poets”, the two words which I love separately . I still watch it whenever I am down, and it surely has the same impact. But the thing that stayed with me after the very first watch was a part of the verse mentioned in it:  “... the powerful play goes on, And you may contribute a verse,  What’s y...